New Year Procrastination

My vision for this new blog, was to marry all aspects of my life together, and share it with you. My creations, my spiritual walk, my struggles and accomplishments. Two posts in, and here I am sharing one of my biggest struggles. I truly hope that through sharing my raw life with you all, that we can all learn. I hope you guys feel free to comment and share your stories and wisdom here as well.

(Current state of my studio and I have been avoiding it like the Plague! )

I don't know about you, but this year, I have big plans. I want to take my business in some new directions. I have classes to work on, beads to make, jewelry to make, website to work on........not to mention, making time to care for and spend time with my loved ones.

I have been working on me, both physically, mentally and spiritually, and this year, I told myself I would not get in my own way.

Yet here I am, not killing it and getting in my own way.

You see, when I have multiple things in front of, I have trouble deciding where to start. I get a bit overwhelmed, and so I don't do anything.

Self sabotage at its best. Fear and doubt running the show.

I have given myself a lot of down time from jewelry and beads and classes. Now, it really has not been wasted time. I have been spending time reading about and practicing Reiki. I have been learning to quiet my mind with mediation. I have spent a lot of time being social the last 6 weeks, which was very needed for my sanity and for my hubs as well. I have spent a great deal of time with my children, whom are 16, 13 and 11. This is a KEY time to be spending time with them, discussing what is going on in the world, who they are, and listening and laughing with them. Plus, I love them and want to spend as much time with them as possible before they trek out into the world on their own. I am loving the more adult conversations we have these days. So amazing to see them grow into who they are.

Sidebar: (SOOOOoooo, as I was going through my pictures to make a collage of some of the things I have been putting my time and energy into the last 6 weeks, I have to say, I feel less and less guilty about my lack of time in the studio.....because this is what is MOST important to me, and it was time well spent. Visiting family, spending time helping out, seeing old friends, celebrating birthdays and holidays.......its been wonderful. That being said, big girl pants on and ready to move forward!) Enjoy the pictures......I have been busy!

All the same though, I need to get working in the studio.

And yes, I also need to forgive myself for the procrastination.

So today I start fresh, and clean up the studio. I will begin to work on a few things for The Bethlehem House Gallery so they have new jewelry for their next big show. I will work on this website some more, and get my URL transferred and items listed and active for sale. I am also going to work on ways to do some online classes with video. I am still working out the kinks, but look for more PDF downloads and online classes from me this year. Stay tuned for some Facebook live videos and possible classes on You Tube. I am not sure which is going to work best for me at this time.

Moving forward it has to be about balance, and about realizing that things come up (like for instance, my hubs already called me this morning with some things I need to run out to him on the job today). I rarely ever get more than a few hours of uninterrupted work time. But that is just how it is, and I have to figure out how to make it work! And I will.

Anyhow...............................

Today is a New Moon- and new moons are a wonderful time to set our intention of what we want to grow (as the moon waxes, so do our wishes!) So my intention is to grow my motivation and focus. Not just for this month, but for my future. My wish is to grow my business.

I find myself wanting to KNOW which directions are the right ones, but I continue to pull Oracle cards for myself that tell me to have fun (creating) and go with the flow. So ok- let me get my arm floats on, and enjoy this ride! Maybe the key to this balance we seek is simply going with the flow.